Nerves

“Do one thing every day that scares you,”

So I didn’t grow up as one of those girls who started ballet at 2, but I would say that my love of dance and particularly ballet started when I was about 4. The time spent at home (I was home schooled before entering primary school), I would bound around the house whenever Michael Jackson was playing on the stereo and my eyes glued to the screen when a ballet was on the TV. 

At the age of 8 I joined the Jazz club dance in school and discovered how bendy I was and how remembering steps and counting music was such a breeze. Pre-teen years weren’t very friendly so my dancing took a halt and was replaced by music. 

Dance found me again in secondary school, and when I was 18, I took my first ever ballet class and it was love at first lesson. I knew that this was the place I was meant to be in. 

In my 2nd year at the U, I auditioned and was enrolled in a “scholar’s” program and spent my days dancing. But sadly, my inexperience in handling my mobile joints led to muscle pulls and strains, and eventually injuring my back and I felt I had to stop. 

While devastated, I was introduced to pilates to strengthen my muscles and that was where I started to learn more about misalignment, and disciplined training to gain strength in mobile and weak areas.

I was back in ballet classes soon after and while it was not easy, I’m proud to say that in my short 10 years of ballet, and breaking countless pairs of pointe shoes, I’ve completed my CSTD Elementary and also the Royal Academy Advance 1 Exams, and am also a proud owner of a professional pair of pointe shoes from Freed of London (I LOVE THEM SO MUCH). 

When I first got back at ballet (I took about a year off) I started to look for other forms of workouts that would help (apart from Pilates, as I wanted to explore). Did yoga and then I discovered Xtend Barre (2014). And I was hooked. 

When I got news that Upside Motion was going to host an Xtend Barre Instructor’s course I knew I had to do it. Jumping at the opportunity, I paid the course fee and took a week off work.

I had so much fun and on the last day I felt like a child that didn’t want a camp to end. 

While it’s back to reality, and while I work on my final submission so I can add this totally unrelated certification to my list of qualifications (I hold a Dip. in Biomedical Science and a B.A in Philosophy/Psychology by the way)… what was the point in all of this? 

In all honesty, it was in those moments that I felt most alive and myself; I felt present and open minded in those moments too. 

Someone once said to me, “Be thankful for opportunities, but also thank yourself for showing up and seizing those opportunities presented to you,”

Something I will always carry in my heart.

Looking back, while it could be tempting to say “if I had known/If I had better circumstances, I would be living my dream blah blah blah,” I do believe that time and our life works out in a ways we never imagined but it is where we know we should be. And life isn’t something that can be failed like an exam; all we have to do is to keep walking, resting when we need to, staying close to the ground and trusting our gut.
xx, 

T. 

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